Today I'm living in the month of September, amidst school, home and
screens. It is the month to rejoice and paint the town red! The birth
of a brand new year for me; one year down from sweet sixteen, or
rather a fabulous fifteen! Lamentably, I am left bathed in white
light, cooped up in the walls of sleepless times (yet having
nightmares), with a 15-inch laptop, some notebooks, hunger for good
grades and chocolate..
It
is the time when my brain and heart melee. Like almost all the time!
My heart wants me to go back in time, steal that gusto personality
the old me enrobed, put on some blasting music, eat lots, go shopping
with friends, have a good day out with family and be all cuckoo,
dancing around with my ballooned garbs. Yes I have lived it in the
past but now it is the time to put the brain to work, to heavy
booking; something I have not done with abounding heart and mind
before.
Just
half a year back was the time when I began realising how chief these
exams are, for a correctly carved future. Concurrently, I imagine
life coming to a screeching halt, because every passing minute races
like bolt, and I have close to just 19 days left for the set of exams
that will decide how my tomorrow will be.
Birthdays will keep making it's way in and out but good grades come
once in a life time. So I am not left high and dry, at least for now.
I wouldn't call this hell. I know it is for my own self to enjoy the
fruit so I am ready and can see a new ray of hope.
Focusing for just
a little while is to bask in the sunshine of success later!
Right now my first impulse is to give it my all,
and.. my
second.....is..to....pee. Bye!
